Chapter 3, she said the moonlight is warm

I know, "Song Yanyi said.

Liu Wen and Guo Jiani were still lying in bed and had not gotten up. Upon hearing my footsteps, both of them poked their heads out from the bed

Xu Muchan locked the door and led me towards the elevator

Ah?

In the first year of high school, he placed a flower in the palm of my hand, his gaze calm and profound, carrying a hint of nostalgia. "When the gardenias bloom, you always bring one to school."

He closed his eyes and soon fell asleep. Unconsciously, he leaned his head on my shoulder. I initially intended to push him away, but when I turned to look, I saw a faint bluish hue under his eyes. My outstretched hand paused in mid-air, and in the end, I did not push him away.

After sitting down at an empty table outside, Xu Muchen ordered two servings of soup dumplings

Tsk tsk. Liu Wen looked at me with ill intentions

"Because I cannot like him." My thoughts were directly pierced by Liu Wen, and I could not refute it, so I had to tell her the truth, "Liu Wen, I am not qualified to like Xu Muchen."

As Song Yanyi and I walked side by side, we unexpectedly encountered Liu Wen and Guo Jiani halfway. Upon seeing us together, both displayed expressions of shock and confusion. Under normal circumstances, Liu Wen would have rushed over with ill intentions to ask me to introduce Song Yanyi, but today, she did not do so. Instead, she took the equally perplexed Guo Jiani and returned to the dormitory without saying a word.

"It's nothing, I went to the hospital to get some medicine, and my stomach doesn't hurt anymore," I said. "Why are you all still sleeping? Did you come back very late yesterday?"

The melodious sound of reading during the morning study still lingers in my ears as I sit in my seat, open my backpack, take out the blooming gardenia, and place it in the drawer

Do not joke around

Xu Muchen is exceptionally familiar with this place, suggesting that he has likely lived here for a long time, perhaps since his freshman year.

I am quite shocked; why is Song Yanyi here

What are you talking about? I pretend to understand nothing

"How do you want me to tell them?" Xu Muchen looked at me with a half-smile, "Would you rather stay somewhere else than here with me? For instance, at Song Yanyi's place?"

In my memory, the sky is always a very pure blue, without a trace of impurity. The ground is covered with lush green grass, and the world is bathed in gentle sunlight

I suppose so. I can only answer with a forced smile.

This makes me feel that I have never lost those important people. Yes, perhaps for me, Liu Wen is the former Chen Ke, and Guo Jiani, she is the Mo Yuchen that I dare not recall

You are back! How was it? What happened later yesterday? Liu Wen looked at me with sleepy eyes, clearly not having had a good sleep

Thank you, Lanxin, thank you," Chen Ke said gratefully, "We will meet at Dayu Square in the city center, and I will wait for you by the fountain in the middle of the square.

I will take a nap; please wake me up when we arrive at the station, Xu Muchen said

Indeed, this is the one matter that I do not wish to confront myself, and I am unwilling to let anyone intervene.

Once I thought it was pretentious, but now I find this statement to be quite reasonable

"Given my sincere intentions, could you please not refuse me?" Song Yanyi looked at me earnestly

Lu Lanxin, is class over?

My hand was tightly clenched into a fist, and my heart was contracting violently

01

I said, "I want to go back to school after eating." "Today is Monday."

My heart skipped a beat, what does it mean? He actually told Liu Wen and Guo Jiani?

"So, I wonder if Classmate Lu has time to have dinner together?" Song Yanyi's voice was filled with a strong sense of amusement

"No, I have contacted them and informed them that you will return later," Xu Muchen said

I have been watching you all along

"So does that mean Xu Muchen already has a girlfriend?" Liu Wen pressed for more information

"It's not difficult; there is one right in front of you." Xu Muchen stopped in his tracks, standing on the lower step, his gaze locking with mine. "I also meet your requirements, so shouldn't you consider giving me a chance as well?"

I am fine, I will not take it seriously

The sky has turned dark, and countless stars are twinkling incessantly, as if someone has scattered a handful of diamonds across a pitch-black curtain

Thank you, I said with lingering fear in my heart

I pushed the door open and walked out. Xu Muchen had already turned off the computer. When he saw that I had changed into a dress, he couldn't help but laugh: "Lanxin, you are about the same height as my sister, just right to wear it."

The afterglow of the setting sun illuminated him, making him appear even more cheerful and bright. The girls passing by turned their heads in unison, their eyes filled with admiration.

Well, then it is settled. I said

Then just tell me! Liu Wen looked very frustrated, appearing completely at a loss as to what to do with me. "Do you want us to watch you worry while doing nothing? It's like watching a drowning person struggle in front of me, and I have to stand by and watch coldly. I can't do that."

While I was lost in thought, Xu Muchan quickly pulled me back. I suddenly came to my senses and realized that there were high steps below, and I had just nearly stepped into thin air.

How long are you going to pretend to be confused

It seems that Liu Wen is truly angry. Although I do not understand why she is upset with me over my matters, I think it would be better to find an opportunity to apologize to her.

"I can sleep again at school; I cannot miss Professor Han's class. If we leave now, I can still sleep for two or three hours." Xu Muchen smiled at me and said, "Let's go."

Hmm. I nodded and asked, "What about Liu Wen?"

Alright. I followed him out.

When I woke up the next day, it was already past 8 o'clock, and I hurriedly got up. My head was a bit painful, probably due to the constant high tension. Suddenly, I remembered that kiss, touched my lips, and felt a slight concern in my heart

In order to avoid wasting time on unnecessary arguments, I chose to compromise

During the afternoon class, I was consistently distracted and unable to concentrate, regardless of what I did

I returned to the dormitory holding my textbook, and both Liu Wen and Guo Jiani were not present, but their textbooks were left on the table, indicating that they must have gone to the cafeteria for dinner

I have mentally prepared myself for the possibility of being rejected by you when I came to see you. " He said earnestly, "Last time I spoke too hastily and it wasn't formal enough, it seemed like a joke. This time I want to say it again seriously.

I stared at him in a daze. I thought that from middle school to high school, no one was aware of my existence, because I had made myself into a misfit, a solitary person. I enjoyed that loneliness, as if it allowed me to find peace within myself

Do not misunderstand me, I merely borrowed this piece of clothing; nothing has happened between Xu Muchan and me. I know what you are thinking, but it is not as you imagine. I quickly explained before Liu Wen started to babble, saying, "Because I had a stomachache, I took some medicine, which has a sedative effect, so I fell asleep. By the time I woke up, it was already past 12 o'clock, and there was no way to return to school, which is why I stayed overnight at Xu Muchan's house.

I do not know, such matters, I do not know!

Before I had even reached the dormitory, my phone rang. I quickly took it out to take a look; it was a call from Chen Ke.

How can there be an inexplicable fondness? If he liked a stunning beauty like Roningning, it might be understandable. But he likes me, who does not possess an astonishing appearance, outstanding talents, or a good personality. So, what exactly does he like about me?

I opened my mouth, but no sound came out. Faced with Liu Wen's words, I found myself unable to come up with a rebuttal.

A loud bang echoed in my heart, and I looked up at her in shock; however, she had already let go of my hand and walked towards the bathroom, continuing until she reached the sink.

Xu Muchan picked a gardenia flower and handed it to me, saying: "I remember that you, Lan Xin, love gardenias very much"

I do not know if anyone has tried to contact me during this period, as my phone has been in my small bag, and I have not touched it since yesterday.

After all, Liu Wen and Guo Jiani are the friends with whom I have gotten along the best since entering university. During my high school years, I deliberately diminished my presence, and it was not until I entered university that I began to try to reintegrate myself into the crowd.

I am sorry, but this particular matter... I find myself at a loss for words

Hmm. He nodded.

"Because of the gardenia, it is very fragrant." He smiled slightly, "Such a fragrant flower, it is hard not to notice, isn't it? Have you forgotten? At that time, I was sitting near the back door, and you loved to enter the classroom through the back door, so you would walk past me almost every day."

"He did not reject you, nor does he have a girlfriend. Since that is the case, why do you feel unqualified? I can clearly see that you are indeed very qualified; even a blind person can tell. Xu Muchen must like you," Liu Wen said.

"Do you want to be in a relationship?" he asked

After many years, unexpectedly encountering him in this city, he was still able to recognize who I am, which took me by surprise

However, Xu Muchen led me down another path. This path ran straight through a lush, green park. At this time of year, the flowers in the park were all in bloom, and upon entering, one was surrounded by the sounds of birds and the fragrance of flowers. The sunlight was still gentle, and the air in the park was exceptionally fresh, making one unable to resist the urge to linger a little longer

You tell them, I am with you My voice has changed Liu Wen and Guo Jiani already suspected that my relationship with Xu Muchen was not merely that of friends, and now it is even more complicated. I stayed with Xu Muchen for a night, and although nothing happened, it is difficult to explain to them.

"Alright, where shall we meet tomorrow afternoon?" Perhaps it was because her voice was too cautious that I could not bring myself to say no. To be honest, I somewhat miss the once flamboyant and willful Chen Ke. That Chen Ke was so bright and dazzling, whereas the current Chen Ke lives under the moonlight

"What if I say I do mind?" He looked straight at me, seemingly eager to see how I would respond

Hmm. He nodded.

The term "宋言轶" refers to a specific phrase or name in Chinese, which may not have a direct translation in English. It could be interpreted as a proper noun, possibly a person's name or a title. Without additional context, its exact meaning remains ambiguous.

I sighed deeply in my heart; it seems that Liu Wen is truly very angry with me

"Wait for me a moment, I have classes in the afternoon as well, and I have finished my tasks. I will go back to school with you." He said this while starting to pack his things.

Such a past, tranquil yet solitary, I had thought that no one noticed this small gesture of mine

"It's alright," I hurriedly said, "Let's go, you should quickly return to your dormitory and rest for a while."

Oh, indeed. Old memories mingled with the fragrance of gardenias slowly rise to the heart

A night without sleep will inevitably lead to drowsiness

I walk alone on the small path of the campus, holding my textbook, while groups of three to five classmates are beside me. It seems that there is no solitary figure like me; everyone is chatting and laughing with others, which makes me feel particularly lonely

04

Isn't the scenery nice?" Xu Muchen said lightly, "Sometimes, I come here to sit for a while.

No problem. I quickly averted my gaze.

I walked lightly through the back door of the classroom, but no one turned to look at me. I was like a thin shadow, quietly making my way to my seat.

But isn't this strange?

I still just shake my head.

"Do not frown, smile more," Song Yanyi said with a smile, "In fact, I wanted to do this since my first year of high school."

As I was holding my meal card and planning to go for dinner, my phone rang. I picked it up to take a glance, and to my surprise, it was a call from Song Yanyi.

Are you wondering why she is angry with me? Are you also curious about who that boy is who walked with me in the evening? I asked, looking into her eyes

I have built a wall in my heart, and within that wall lies a garden called secrets, where what is enclosed are our joyful yet naive past, the irreparable mistakes we made due to our reckless ignorance. Because of that mistake, I transformed into another person, from then on rejecting happiness and all opportunities that could free me from loneliness

I recall that yesterday in the taxi, I seemed to have leaned on Xu Muchan's shoulder the entire way, thus we have evened the score.

"What is it?" Noticing the look of confusion in my eyes, Xu Muchan lowered his head and asked, looking into my eyes.

Would Liu Wen and Guo Jiani worry about me? After all, we went out together yesterday, but I had an emergency and couldn't go back with them. Also, Chen Ke, who managed to contact me, is a girl who used to be carefree but now seems cautious. She can't find me, and she must be thinking a lot... "Be careful."

"She has gone to the library." Guo Jianni hesitated, as if she wanted to say something to me, but for some reason, she was unable to express it directly

Ah? I was stunned for a moment and couldn't react. Why did Guo Jiani suddenly say these things?

"Song Yanyi?" I looked at him in confusion. Why did he suddenly bring up Song Yanyi? Our conversation seemed unrelated to Song Yanyi.

"So, Lanxin, what exactly are you struggling with?" Liu Wen has a rather straightforward personality and can never hide her thoughts. Whatever is on her mind, she will express it immediately; she cannot hold back her words.

"There is a dress in the wardrobe that you should be able to wear," Xu Muchen's voice came from outside

Every relationship deserves to be taken seriously. Perhaps I will still refuse him, but I hope to provide him with an answer only after careful consideration. This is a sign of respect for him and a recognition of the seriousness with which he has confessed his feelings to me.

Hmm. Xu Muchen fell silent and quietly finished his bun.

"It is like this, I am going to interview for a tutoring part-time job, but the place is a bit remote, and this is my first time attending such an interview. Can you accompany me?" After she finished speaking, she added, "Because all my other friends I could ask for help have other commitments, that is why I thought of asking you."

I answered the phone and brought the mobile device close to my ear, as Song Yanyi's voice reached my ears

"Lu Lanxin." Song Yanyi, who was sitting opposite me, called out my name

I do not allow myself to indulge in wild thoughts; overthinking inevitably leads to sadness

Even if I understand that my struggles and resistance are meaningless, I still will not take them seriously

"It is impossible for Xu Muchan and me. I think I need to clarify this with Liu Wen, otherwise she will definitely keep thinking about it. Liu Wen, this is not about who likes whom between him and me, but rather that I cannot like him. This is my issue, my own problem, and it has nothing to do with Xu Muchan or any of you. Please stop concerning yourself with my matters."

05

It's just an opportunity, do you mind

"Alright, I will think it over carefully," I nodded. Perhaps it was due to the sadness in his tone, or perhaps it was the familiar glimmer in his eyes, but in the end, I did not immediately refuse him.

He suddenly burst into laughter, his pair of pitch-black eyes shining brilliantly in the sunlight: "Do you think Song Yanyi is capable?"

I know today is Monday, but I remember that you do not have classes in the morning, only classes in the afternoon during the third and fourth periods said Xu Muchen with a smile

So that's how it is. Then you all can sleep a little longer, it's still early. I took out the clothes I changed out of yesterday, intending to take them to the sink to wash them clean

Well, class is over. I opened the door to the dormitory and walked out

I secretly breathed a sigh of relief. Although I do not understand why I subconsciously let out a sigh, it felt as if something that had been troubling me had been resolved.

I did not mean that. I was suddenly flustered, "Liu Wen, please do not overthink it. I truly do not mean to blame you for meddling; you have been very kind to me, and I understand that in my heart."

Why do you pay attention to such matters? I really cannot understand, so I asked.

She did not speak, but from her expression and gaze, I could tell I was not mistaken; she was indeed confused about it. However, where should I begin to explain this?

He let out a sigh of relief, and a smile returned to his face: "Thank you"

My shoulders feel sore and slightly numb; indeed, sitting still for the entire journey has taken its toll on me

I am sorry. I lowered my head, looking at my fingertips, "That day at the party, when I promised to give you a chance, I was deceiving you."

I ... ...

Everyone has secrets they do not want others to know, and there are words that cannot be spoken. Why is it that Liu Wen cannot understand me? If she is a friend, she should be able to understand me. I stood on the rooftop for a long time, until the school bell brought my thoughts back.

Liu Wen's words echoed in my ears once again

Alas! I heard Liu Wen let out a helpless sigh, her face was drenched, and she quietly looked at me for a while, ultimately saying nothing.

I tasted a slightly sweet broth and tender meat filling, and the flavor was indeed quite good. I nodded and said, "It is very delicious"

The heart slowly tightens, as if someone is squeezing it.

I shook my head and remained silent

Why would Xu Muchan pay attention to someone like me

The words spoken to me by Xu Muchan echoed in my ears; he said it this way, and Liu Wen said it this way as well

I seemed to hear a sound of something cracking, it was the thick wall I had built, now the surface of the wall has developed cracks, and the emotions trapped within the wall are gradually spilling out.

Whoever said that the most terrifying thing in this world is not failing to obtain, but rather losing what one has obtained afterwards

I let out a long breath; it was indeed just a dream. The door was locked from the inside, indicating that no one had opened it during the night. Moreover, someone like Xu Muchen would never do something as audacious as stealing a kiss from another person. And the fact that the target of the kiss was me makes it even more impossible.

Okay I nodded

"Is it enough to just be handsome and like you?" Xu Muchen said lightly, "There are many people who meet this criterion. Lan Xin, your requirements are rather simplistic."

Indeed, it is that Song Yanyi whom you gave the opportunity to get close to you. He deliberately emphasized the words "you gave him the opportunity".

At this time, there weren't many people on the subway. Normally, the subway is always very crowded, but there were quite a few empty seats. Xu Muchen and I sat down on one of the empty seats.

Time has changed, not only Chen Ke but also me. I wonder if Chen Ke is also missing the me from the past, the me that cannot be returned to?

"Let's go, or we will have to wait for a table," he urged

Because I feel unworthy of happiness, my heart has been locked in a closed castle, and no matter how hard I knock, I cannot open that tightly closed door. If I could be happy and have a wonderful life, it would be too unfair.

I looked up in surprise, did he know I was lying? But he was clearly very happy at that time. Upon hearing the lie, was he not angry?

Well, classmate Xu, is there something wrong with your focus

However, I can't go back and explain to her right now. What matters most at the moment is to clarify things with Song Yanyi.

"Saying that you like Xu Muchen!" Liu Wen clearly did not give me the chance to pretend to be confused, "I am not joking. Lan Xin, do you know that you are actually very easy to understand? What you are thinking and what you care about can almost be seen through at a glance"

Unlike me, Xu Muchen was the center of attention at that time. As a person like him, he was destined to be watched and admired wherever he went.

Let's talk after having dinner first I said

"Lan Xin, you finally answered the phone." She seemed to breathe a sigh of relief

I do not like to deceive others, nor do I hate deception. I deceived Song Yanyi by saying that I would give him a chance, but I clearly had no intention of giving him that chance from the very beginning. The reason I said that was merely because Xu Muchen was present. Those words were less for Song Yanyi and more for Xu Muchen.

I recall him telling me that he lives outside because he has to work. I am somewhat curious in my heart; like me, he is only in his second year of university, yet he has already started working

"That's great, may I trouble you with something?" Chen Ke asked

"Why do you care?" I said, "We are just friends. You will have a girlfriend, and of course, I will have a boyfriend. Isn't it said that not dating during university is equivalent to wasting your life?"

Awake? He lifted his head from the computer, his expression slightly weary. Prepare yourself, I will take you to have breakfast. There is a place here that makes excellent soup dumplings.

Crossing through the park and exiting from another gate, one arrives at the back entrance of the community

In my mind, the face of a girl quickly emerged. She is Xu Muchen's younger sister whom I know. When I was in elementary school, there was a ballet classroom where children from kindergarten to high school attended. In our class, there was a girl who was two years younger than us, and she was Xu Muchen's younger sister, Xu You'er. At that time, Xu Muchen waited outside the dance classroom just to go home with his sister. It turned out that the little one had grown up to be as tall as me. At that time, Xu Muchen waited outside the dance classroom just to go home with his sister. It turned out that the little one had grown up to be as tall as me.

I put on the dress and was surprised to find that the size was just right. This means that the dress could not possibly belong to Roning Ning, as she is at least half a head taller than me

He gently stroked my forehead: "At that time, you were always deep in thought, with your brows furrowed, as if there were always troubling matters bothering you."

I truly am particularly ill-suited to lying, whether to others or to myself

Yes. Usually when I'm not in class, I either read books in the library or spend time in my dormitory reading novels, watching TV, or watching anime. Unless there are special arrangements, I am usually free.

Well... I took a deep breath. Since he is right here, there are many things that I should clarify with him. Especially regarding that day, at the gathering, when I promised to give him a chance.

"It's just going out for breakfast, no need to bring a bag," Xu Muchen said, "It's very close."

I had no choice but to follow.

At that moment, Liu Wen couldn't help but jump off the bed, placing one hand on my shoulder and leaning close to my ear, saying: "Lan Xin, how long are you going to continue deceiving yourself? You say that you and Xu Mu Chen are just ordinary friends, but if that were the case, why does he care so much about you? Jia Ni and I are right beside you, yet we didn't notice your stomach pain, while Xu Mu Chen, sitting several rows behind, noticed something was wrong with you. The only explanation for this is that he has been watching you closely; there is no other possibility. So, Lan Xin, how long are you going to pretend to be confused?"

Actually, I don't quite understand why Liu Wen is so angry. Is it just because I refused to tell her about me and Xu Muchen? Do friends have to share each other's secrets?

After hanging up the phone, I found Song Yanyi's phone number. He also called me, although I didn't know why he was looking for me. But since he called, it would be impolite not to call him back.

I opened the door and walked out. Xu Muchen was still in the same position as I saw him last night before I left, seemingly still busy.

After arriving at Xu Muchen's house, he took the initiative to hand me my bag.

Why are you here? In an instant, many questions flooded my mind. Song Yanyi and I are not from the same school, so how does he know where my dormitory building is?

But you didn't sleep all night! I thought he wouldn't go to school today, after all, he didn't sleep all night last night.

"So are we meddling in your affairs?" Liu Wen's tone was somewhat sharp, "Do you know that when you left yesterday, we were very worried about you? I called you so many times but couldn't get through, we were also very anxious. Lu Lanxin, do you even have a conscience?"

Lan Xin? Guo Jiani looked at me with a worried expression, "Are you okay? What Liu Wen just said was merely her own opinion. You know she loves to make jokes about you and Xu Muchen, so don't take it seriously."

"That small bag I carry with me, where did you put it?" I just looked around and did not find my small bag, nor do I know where Xu Muchen placed it.

After completing these tasks, I returned to the entrance of my dormitory and took out my keys to unlock the door

How long should I pretend to be confused

How should I tell her about that long-hidden secret buried deep in my heart? It is a secret I intend to never recall, for the mere thought of it makes me tense all over, leaves my mouth dry, and plunges me into a terrifying state of fear

A slight stir occurred in my heart as I looked at Xu Muchan in disbelief. It has been over four years since the first year of high school, and he actually remembers such a thing? No, that's not the point; the question is why he would pay attention to me. In my first year of high school, I had even less presence than I do now. I could be considered a lone wolf at school, and even until the end of high school, there were still people in my class who did not know my name

I couldn't help but smile wryly. From the end of middle school to the end of high school, I had always been alone; this was a punishment I inflicted upon myself, deliberately immersing myself in solitude. However, after meeting Liu Wen and Guo Jiani, I found myself rarely alone. The straightforward and enthusiastic Liu Wen, and the gentle and considerate Guo Jiani, I seem to have grown accustomed to being with them.

Has he seen through my intentions? Has he seen through the reason I have been alone all this time, the reason I have been isolated?

I said I would pursue you. When you truly want to know about someone, there is always a way to find out. Song Yanyi said with a smile

Hmm? I raised my head and responded.

I walked down the stairs slowly. By the time I entered the classroom, most of the people had already left; Liu Wen and Guo Jiani were also gone, leaving only my textbooks on the desk. I tidied up my books and walked out slowly.

He couldn't possibly care, as it has nothing to do with him

I honestly answered whether Liu Wen and Jiani would be worried about me

Why is that?" Song Yanyi thought seriously for a moment and said, "Perhaps it is because you are very special. In our first year of high school, we were in the same class, and you were always alone, as if it were intentional, not getting close to anyone. I noticed that there were other girls who wanted to talk to you, but your reactions were always indifferent. I was wondering, how could someone deliberately isolate themselves in this world?

"Wait a moment." Liu Wen has already woken up. She looked at the clothes I was wearing and curiously asked, "Where did you get this outfit? Did Xu Muchen give it to you?"

"Lu Lanxin, take me with you to eat." Song Yanyi said with a smile, standing in front of me

"Wait a moment." He suddenly interrupted me, "You might want to refrain from answering me too quickly; at least consider my words seriously, alright? I am serious, there is not a hint of jest in my words. Perhaps you find this sudden, or even a bit abrupt, but please forgive me, I can only do this because it may be my only chance."

Xu Muchan indeed complied with my request and no longer made jokes with me

She must be very disappointed in me. Clearly, she likes me, yet she insists on pretending not to.

Upon arriving at the school gate, I originally intended to return by myself, but Xu Muchen insisted on escorting me to the dormitory entrance

"In fact, you don't need to explain to us," Guo Jiani said softly. "Lan Xin, are you explaining to us, or are you explaining to yourself?"

As I pulled open the wardrobe door, there indeed lay a pink dress quietly inside, deepening my curiosity even further. It would be one thing to find pajamas, but to discover a girl's dress as well—does he really live here all by himself?

He extended his finger and pressed it against my forehead. His fingertip was slightly cool, and as it touched my forehead, it instantly calmed my chaotic mind.

"Because even if it was a deception, it was still an opportunity, wasn't it? If you had directly rejected me, I would have no reason to come see you now, would I?" The smile in his eyes gradually faded, "So even if it was a deception, I was very happy at that time. Therefore, Lanxin, you do not need to say sorry to me"

After parting ways with Xu Muchan downstairs of the dormitory building, I walked into the dormitory, stood by the second-floor window, and watched him walk away before heading towards my room

I checked the time, it was 10:30. At this time, Song Yanyi might be in class. After some thought, I sent him a text message to inquire if he needed to talk to me

I sat still, wanting to take out my phone to return a call to Chen Ke, but I was afraid that moving would wake him. In the end, I remained frozen like this until we got off the vehicle

"Sorry, why don't you push me away?" This was the first thing Xu Muchen said after I woke him up. "Your shoulder must be sore, right?"

Where is it simple? As long as one looks good, this is not simple. After all, although there are many handsome men these days, they are not so numerous that they can be found everywhere. Moreover, handsome men are often taken by beautiful women. For someone like me, being able to find a handsome man who is at least above average is already something to smile about.

Hmm. I followed along, holding the soft and fragrant gardenia flower in my hand

02

After brushing my teeth and washing my face, I began to worry while changing my clothes, because in such weather, it is impossible to wear the same clothes for two days

However, Xu Muchen noticed me, and not just Xu Muchen; the person in front of me, Song Yanyi, who had a brilliant smile, also noticed me

It is quite good. I nodded slightly, my gaze lingering on those flowers and plants

"Let's go." He turned around, took the keys, walked to the door, and quietly looked at me

Are you lonely

I quickly took out my phone, and after unlocking it, I saw several missed calls, including those from Liu Wen, Chen Ke, and one from Song Yanyi

Later, I often thought, if only I could make you smile. He withdrew his hand that was pressing on my forehead and smiled slightly, "However, after the first year of high school, we were no longer in the same class. After the college entrance examination ended, I suddenly realized that I could not find you. It was strange, clearly there were many ways to find you, yet I did not go looking for you."

Your sister

"If what you say is true, then why are you still feeling down?" Liu Wen looked at me in confusion, "Isn't that strange? Or do you have a tendency for self-harm? You would rather suffer alone with a stomachache than clarify your feelings with the other person"

He seems to have a point, but I still have a very unreal feeling

"Lu Lanxin, are you willing to give me a chance?" He looked at me quietly, silently waiting for an answer

"It is like this, do you have time after six o'clock tomorrow afternoon?" Chen Ke asked cautiously

I walked to the door, tried to turn the doorknob, and found that the door was still locked from the inside

"Yesterday on our way back, we ran into a friend of mine who insisted on dragging us to sing together. In the end, we went to KTV and sang for a few hours, and we barely made it back to the dormitory before curfew," Guo Jiani replied.

Yes, I did it intentionally

"Let’s go." Xu Muchen said with a faint smile as he slowly walked past me, "Go back."

Then it shall be so! Liu Wen is upset with me. Since this is the case, you should take care of yourself. Jia Ni and I will no longer concern ourselves with your matters. Perhaps in your heart, we are not even considered your friends!

"It belongs to Xu Muchen's younger sister." I answered with a stiff upper lip. I knew that after returning, I would definitely have to face the interrogation from Liu Wen and Guo Jiani.

When I returned to the dormitory, only Guo Jiani was there, and Liu Wen was not present. Upon seeing me, Guo Jiani gave me a slight smile and said, "You are back!"

Isn't it you who is out of sorts! I particularly wanted to say this, but in the end, I held back, because I feared everything would spiral out of control again, just like the minor unpleasantness that occurred between Xu Muchan and me after I woke up yesterday

At this moment, I had already walked out of the dormitory building. I instinctively glanced around and saw Song Yanyi approaching me with a smile, holding a mobile phone in his hand

I apologize, I didn't have my phone with me yesterday. I was just about to call you back, but it has become somewhat inconvenient. I explained, "Is there something urgent you need?"

I stand alone on the rooftop, my thoughts in disarray

Xu Muchan led me to a small path paved with blue stones. Along the roadside, there were quite a few gardenia trees. At this time of year, the gardenias should have withered, yet here they were still blooming in abundance, the gentle breeze carrying their fragrance, refreshing and delightful.

I gritted my teeth, and having reached this point, I no longer feel conflicted

I packed my clothes into a bag, tidied up all the traces of my visit, and then said to Xu Muchen: "I will wash the clothes and return them to you later. I am going back to school; could you please tell me where I can catch a bus?"

I am somewhat surprised as to why Xu Muchen would know our class schedule. He is not in the same department as me, and our majors are vastly different, so it stands to reason that he should not be aware of it.

Do not say such things anymore, as I will take them seriously. Once I take them seriously, I will be unable to control my emotions. At least for now, I can still keep myself in the position of a good friend

At least he is quite handsome, and it seems that he really likes me. I really want Xu Muchen to stop talking and not ask any further questions. I am not good at lying, so whenever I do lie, I become particularly anxious and it consumes a lot of my mental energy

We soon arrived at the breakfast shop mentioned by Xu Muchen. This is a breakfast shop hidden in a small alley, and at this time, there are not many people in the shop, as the morning rush hour has already passed, and many who stopped by for breakfast have already left

"Lu Lanxin, liking someone is inherently an unreasonable matter." Song Yanyi said, "If there is a reason, then it wouldn't be called liking, would it?"

"Speaking of which, Song Yanyi, why do you like me?" This is something I have never been able to understand. During our first year of high school, Song Yanyi and I hardly spoke to each other.

After finishing breakfast, I continued to follow Xu Muchan back, thinking that once I arrived at his home, I would definitely take my bag and leave at the first opportunity

I found a small restaurant, ordered some food, and then I started to think about how to talk to Song Yanyi.

Is that so? Song Yanyi said with a smile, "I saw you."

After having dinner, I slowly walked towards the dormitory after parting ways with Song Yanyi at the bus stop in front of the school

"Lan Xin, come with me." After the first class ended, Liu Wen finally could no longer hold back and dragged me out of the classroom. She pulled me along as we ran wildly, and finally climbed up to the rooftop, where she finally let go of my hand: "I will only ask you one question, are we friends?"

I thought I was merely curious about you, until a few days ago when I encountered you again at a gathering. His gaze was astonishingly bright, and he said, "I realized that the moment I saw you, my heart stopped for two seconds; I have never been so excited before. It was then that I understood that my attention towards you in the first year of high school was perhaps not just curiosity. I like you, and I liked you even before I was aware of it myself"

Alright. I was thinking that I could go back after finishing breakfast

At present, I am already in a precarious situation. If Xu Muchen is likened to an enemy, then he has already captured territories and is nearing the gates of my heart's fortress.

Ah? I looked at him in surprise, "How did you know? I don't seem to have mentioned it, right?"

03

What are you thinking about? he asked, You have been acting quite strangely these past couple of days

I had originally made up my mind to have a clear conversation with Song Yanyi, but in the end, I was swayed by his words. Perhaps his attitude was too sincere, making it impossible for me to utter the words of refusal. I clearly know that this is meaningless, and the answer has long been established, yet I still give others unwarranted hope. This is truly not good, is it

Ah? I was taken aback for a moment, "Let's just forget about it today, I am about to head to the school cafeteria"

Ah? My footsteps paused momentarily

Of course we are friends! Since the beginning of our freshman year until now, it has been almost two years, and Liu Wen, Guo Jiani, and I have always gotten along very well, maintaining a close relationship.

"Qualification?" Liu Wen was taken aback, "Why is there no qualification? Did you confess to Xu Muchen before and were rejected by him?"

It is not like this! I still want to say something, but Liu Wen has already turned around and walked away from me with large strides.

"Give it a try," he said to me with a smile after the soup dumplings were served.

After exiting the community gate, I walked along the asphalt road for about ten minutes and arrived at the entrance of Line 2 of the subway. I glanced at the station name and realized that it was actually not far from here to our school. I instinctively looked at Xu Muchan, who had clearly said last night that there were no more buses back, but the subway operates until midnight, and it should not have been midnight yet at that time

However, even if it is a show of bravado, I must continue to feign ignorance.

You speak. I did not enter the dormitory, but instead walked to the window at the end of the corridor